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It’s a truism of writing craft that characters need to act and reveal themselves and basically fling themselves from choice to choice in order to show who they are. But a new book I’m reading has made me realize how one-dimensional writing advice so often is. I suppose the rule of active, doing, choice-making characters is valid for many books. But how come one never reads advice on how to make a main character a passive observer? Why shouldn’t writing gurus advise this occasionally?

I am wondering this because I am in the first flush of excitement over a new book with a passive observer narrator, and it is just lovely: observation after observation unrolling at a snail’s pace.

This is “A Question of Upbringing,” by Anthony Powell, book one in “A Dance to the Music of Time.” I downloaded it (yes, I now have a Kindle!) because Elif Batuman did and wrote about it, and I have been slavishly following her blog, because it has the right proportion of humor, curiosity, random association, and erudition, plus I appreciate her philosophical attitude toward life’s big and little travails.

I was a fan of Elif’s article about drunken dialing Agatha Christie on her Kindle (which led me to think about the underrated quality of coziness in literature), and upon learning that she had turned to Powell, I blindly followed her Kindle trail.

And I’m enjoying it wholeheartedly. I’ve downloaded several books that are much more pacey (an adjective I heard the cool editors use at a literary conference and now want to use myself as a way of appearing in-the-know), and find that I’m in no hurry to read them. Could it be I actually prefer snail’s-pace books with somewhat passive observers as the main characters? (Can’t be, I am, after all, the same person who also read Paranormalcy this month.) Should people sometimes think about writing observer characters?

But that would be … thoughtcrime! You can’t write a character who’s less assertive on the page than the secondary characters.

Or can you? This is where it would be so great to be someplace like graduate school again, where you can go away and tackle a question like this instead of – as I do – thinking about it late at night after writing a white paper on network security solutions.

An observer character is an interesting animal – someone whose drama is all interior, intellectual, and the meaningful action is all about a changing of perception. There’s definitely pleasure to be had in following someone like this around and seeing the world through his or her eyes. But I think you need to be such an assured, masterful thinker and prose stylist to pull this off that maybe it’s nearly impossible to do well. That may be why craft discussions steer writers the other way. The people who can do it know who they are.

At any rate, in my own writing journey I’m writing a character who acts and reveals herself in choice and (I hope) goes smartly through her paces as a well-rounded complex character with a satisfying “arc.”

But I still would love to see a workshop or a blog where someone says, you know what, it’s ok sometimes to write an observer character. Let’s study what makes them great.

You’d think there’d be room enough in the fiction zoo for characters like that.

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I have a novel I’ve been working on for a while (if a while actually means forever) that involves family, crime, love, sex, despair, murder, drugs, and … Proust. My character is struggling to write a doomed essay about him and keeps failing, due to all kinds of bad behavior.

I’ve tried many times to get her to give up on this essay, even to the point of thinking I should just throw this novel away altogether. I guess my fear is that people will see Proust and experience a violent lack of interest. If I didn’t love Proust the way I do, I might see this in a review or on a book jacket and probably think “what a load of pretentious horseshit.”

That aside, just mentioning him creates an almost intolerable comparison between my rather lightweight novel, consisting of hi-jinks and a few desperate jokes, and the great 20th century masterpiece that is In Search of Lost Time. In short, I think my book is doomed.

Just recently, the New York Times Book Review ran an endpaper essay about aborted novels. Some novels simply can’t be fixed and need to be abandoned, and in the article a bunch of prominent authors contributed anecdotes about the bad novels they had given up on. I read this at a vulnerable time when I really thought I had mucked things up with this book badly enough – having put all my favorite things in there only to come up with a book that would appeal to an audience of one – that I should just stop.

And I really thought about stopping, moving on. But I’ve tried to stop and kill it so many (many!) times, and each time it’s re-animated and come lurching after me, haunting my thoughts. So instead of trying to kill it, I re-read it, and read an earlier draft (which sometimes has more energy), and I decided to make another try.

I hope I am not stuck in a lifetime loop of abandoning and then retrieving this story. But if I am, I’m not sure if there’s much I can do about it. By this point it’s become a strange companion, something that, just by virtue of being in my life over so long, has taken on shape and density – almost like a person I keep running into every so often. In its own way, it’s a comforting presence. And maybe, even if I never finish or publish it, I can simply enjoy it for being there.

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I’ve never really felt comfortable around short stories. For one thing, I struggle to write them, and always feel a bit out of proportion whenever I make the attempt – too obvious, too obscure, too packed with stuff, not enough depth. My failings aside, I’m also wary about reading them. In fact, I never did read many at all until in grad school, when I was forced to. Short stories seem to me feel full of treacherous melancholies, all the more dangerous for so often being quiet. And since in my daily life I struggle to remain chipper, it’s rare that I’m in the mood to open myself to their insinuating, perfectly wrought sadness.

All of which is to say I’ve been surprised to find myself really enjoying some short stories lately. I think I’m a full-blown fan, for instance, of Tessa Hadley, who’s often in the New Yorker. Just the other week, she had a story, “Honor,” that has all the elements that usually put me in a funk for days (a dead child, emotionally cramped relationships, the past). But it’s so beautifully done, I found myself swept along.

Here is the narrator, a woman looking back on something that happened when she was a girl:

“I was dreading arriving home in the middle of a big fuss. I couldn’t bear crises: the huddles of women, their lowered voices, smoldering glances, shutting the children out and yet looping them in – tantalizing them – to the dark, sticky center.”

How I love that. Everything she writes is so beautifully simple and exact. Here is another:

“People had mixed feelings about men’s violence against their families in those days: it was disgusting, but it was also, confusedly, part of the suffering essence of maleness, like the smell of tobacco and beard growth.”

I’ve always thought my fear of short stories spoke to a kind of literary arrested development. Like the child in the quote above who couldn’t bear crises, I often feel that I can’t bear fiction that is too real, for I’m too afraid of encountering true sadness and grief. In books, the length helps, and they’re less pointed.

Actually, it was a recent attempt to write a story again that led me to my current spate of short story reading. In the course of this, through posts on Short Story Craft and Earth Goat I ended up loving two other short stories with dead children in them. I’m talking about Alice Munro’s “Dimension” and William Trevor’s “The Dressmaker’s Child,” each of which appeared in the New Yorker. They are each so artfully artless, each about the aftermath of tragedy, each about such ordinary people that they could easily bear their unbearableness into any one of our lives. But they were great. I read them and re-read them.

Maybe I’m finally growing up.

P.S. Here is a great review from the Virginia Quarterly of “Too Much Happiness,” the Alice Munro collection that includes “Dimension.” Puts it much better than I can.

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I’ve been doing some heavy, painful rewriting of a project that has me full of doubts, so I’m using music a lot as I work on it. But I can’t have just anything on, and even my favorite music will have me going off in the wrong direction. So when I’m stuck and need magic help to get instantly in the mood to write, I turn to one track and one track only. Arvo Part, Tabula Rasa – Silentium. I put it on auto repeat and play this into the ground.

Here, it only took me three hours of crawling around the back end of the wordpress plug-in directory to see if I could put up an audio sample of it on this blog.

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I think it’s still easily buyable. And now, since I’m a media-uploading fiend, here’s what the cover looks like.

Cover image, Arvo Part, Tabula Rasa, Fratres, Symphony #3

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Yoga, antagonist

I’ve taken up Bikram yoga again after a long hiatus. This is the kind of yoga that is as much spiritual enterprise as physical practice, because most of the time you’re doing it you wish you were dead. You’re in a room heated to just a few degrees below sauna, the instructors are merciless, the poses kick your butt, and – given the  “Look good naked” slogan that some of the studios use – most of the time you’re surrounded by limber waifs in yoga cute shorts. Even though it seems like I see more older people doing Bikram these days, it’s still the sort of thing where when I see someone with varicose veins and a poochy belly I feel like saying “thank you!”

Anyway, the Bikram near-death experience is very instructive. I lie in savasana and think, “I am dead.” My whole life, I should just be getting ready to be dead: for instance, finally clearing out my folder of junk mail and important financial statements so that when I’m dead my loved ones won’t have to go through all that crap.

Most of the poses I am happy just to survive. But occasionally I get some additional nuance beyond just life and death. Standing Bow Pulling pose is the one I usually fall while trying to do, but now I like it because I think it’s the best one for writing.

The reason is, in order to achieve balance in the pose you have to charge your body forward (the instructors always say that: “charge” – like we’re the yoga cavalry) and kick back at the same time. If you don’t kick back as hard as you go forward, you fall. The importance of kicking back while you’re going forward made me think about my novel and how I really needed to think more about the forces of opposition within it (well, also, my editor may have mentioned something about that). For the story to work, my antagonist needs to be going just as strongly in his direction as my dear little protagonist goes in hers.

So I’ve been focusing on my antagonist and trying to get to the heart of a villainy that makes sense.

standing bow pose

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Aerating

The problem I have with composting right now is that it’s not enough simply to put in the vegetables that have gone bad in the refrigerator, or to be dutiful about collecting the remains on the cutting board – like the broccoli stalks that I really should eat but toss because I always have what feels like an abundance of broccoli around and I’m just disgustingly profligate with it, or to scoop up the melon rinds that suddenly are everywhere once the kids feel like devouring half a watermelon. No, the problem is you can be conscientious – even saintly – about making the trip out to the compost bin and depositing all this stuff. But that’s only half the battle. You then have to aerate it. You have to deal with all that half rotten slimy stuff and mix it around. This is the step I avoid, and it’s why I’ll probably never be a really first-rate composter.

But I’m thinking about aeration issues and why you really do need to get in and mix things up every now and then because I am – of course – rewriting. And it’s night. And I’m not going to eat chocolate (which is how I got to the point of having written something that needs to be rewritten in the first place; sometimes people ask how I did it with kids, job, etc. etc. and the answer really is good dark chocolate.) When I’m stuck like this – going through the Word file for the umpteenth time, knowing the thing by heart – I end up doing tweaks. It gets down to word choice and punctuation. Useless. So tonight I’m going to move chunks around. I know I’ve needed to do it and I’ve been tweaking instead. But this seems exactly like the kind of pitchfork job I could do on a somewhat brain dead night like this. That is, not think about the language or anything tweakable, but just get stuff moved around and in place. Then I’ll have done the kind of manual labor, like aerating, that always makes me forget everything else while I’m doing it, and I’ll feel very virtuous afterward. Hopefully…

Earlier this summer I took a plot workshop with Martha Alderson that was really useful. It had shown up in a SCBWI announcement email, and it seemed like something that could help out as I tried to figure out some children’s book stuff (since I love my character Lucy, I’m trying to see how I can stretch her into more books). But it turned out to pack all kinds of revelations about other projects I was working on, too. And it really was the key in moving forward on my other novel. Suddenly I understood whole new universes of information about Manzanita, the hapless wannabe academic I’m writing about. And it became totally clear how I needed to reshape the second half of her story.

Now, I hate to write from an outline. And I absolutely hate to look at the page count and from there consider which plot point I’m headed toward. To me that makes writing feel like screenwriter hell – and it gives me bad flashbacks of a time when I tied myself in knots after too much time spent with Robert McKee’s Story and one particularly recalcitrant manuscript. But the strange truth is that stepping back and looking at plot at the right time in the process has totally changed things for me.

Pleasure Writing?

Right now I’m struggling with something in my “grown up” novel that just really seems silly from the perspective of a children’s writer, and that is, how much fun should this thing be to read? Should my character find romance, should the guy who seems like an obvious love interest actually be the love interest?! should there be an ending that wraps things up, how much should I balance the fun of reading with the seriousness of my Big Idea?

A previous draft ended with my dear protagonist bleeding to death, alone, in the back of a rental truck used for transporting illegal drugs and realizing that her brother has betrayed her. New ending? Dear protagonist is embraced in the bosom of her family, a wedding has everyone put aside their differences and realize how much they love each other, the love interest beckons.

I guess it’s the enduring influence of my grad school writing program that still gives me these night terrors about writing something that’s actually fun to write – and to read.